I'm still saying

It's been a whole since I've said anything.
I've got nothing to say!
I'm fed up with the state of the affairs in this country... where can one escape to?
Nowhere!
Life in the 21st century
Humans taking major leaps backwards!
It's unfathomable how, in 2012, people are glued to their fairy tale books (i.e the bible)
Dark Ages are making a come back... woohoo...

In time, my dear... in time...

Too much sadness, all around...
I miss my daddy and this is something
I have to live with for as long as I am alive. 
There's a void within that nothing will ever be able to fill. 
Waves of sadness ebb and flow and
All I'm hoping for is the calmness it can bring...

What is there to say?

Overwhelmed

Stressed out

Confused

Not sure if I can handle all of these at the same time!

What kind of a test am I being put through? 
What is the lesson to be learned from this one, this time?

Combination of illness and financial dilemmas...
Would I be able to handle?

what to say?

breath in
breath out

going through some tough times, personally, emotionally

will be alright

some thoughts as i sit in waiting!

it's really very difficult to get old and face so many challenges that life throws your way! 
in which sense?
in a sense that there's always something!

times are not what they used to be when our parents were our age!
the stress level is definitely not what it used to be...

all i have to do is take a deep breath, count my blessings, and do what i have to do!

feel like over-reacting a bit...

So, I have this nasty habit of driving myself insane over events that haven’t happened or may not even come to be or pass! How? I read a monthly horoscope at the beginning of each month. Yes, I know it is general and NOT a personalized one, catered for me and my natal chart. Yes, I know it’s just information and I should take it with a grain of salt but...


So, this month, I’m all freaked out over a few things mentioned:
1) health/vitality may be an issue? teeth and bones to be precise!
2) expenses to rise until October 28th!
3) look for ways to increase income!
4) housing situation or a concern for a parent (or other family member) may come up, one that needs to be figured out quickly! Be ready to bring assistance, if necessary!!!

Issues and how I feel about them:
1) nothing alarming that can’t be handled unless it’s a broken bone!
2) really? what else can be added to my already over-burdened finances?
3) how can I increase my income when I’m on fixed salary? My solution, win the lottery!
4) this one is of a major concern for me! Nothing may happen but after reading about it, it keeps popping in and out of my head!

I have done my best to train myself to be a “NOW” person. It’s a daily struggle and a daily process. At times, certain curve balls come my way and throw me off balance! These are the challenges I welcome in my life but… sometimes, I just don’t want them! Sometimes I just want to BE! Is that too much to ask for?

Just a bit of much needed venting…

Idiot!
Dumbass!
Dimwit!
Think!
Rude!
Condescending!
Offessive!
Hurtful!
Disrespectful!
Childish!
Temper-tantrumy (!)
Displeasure to see!
Annoying!
Irritable!
Hurt!
Wounded!
Unhappy!
Angry!
Crossed!
Irritated!
Fuming!
Frustrated!
and
Exasperated….

An array of emotions I have dealt with recently
equally by a loved one and a hated one!

How much more tolerance is really needed?